I got dressed and put on make up. I found some purple lip gloss to match my tie dyed t-shirt. I picked out some small studded ear rings and tied on the scarf. One more picture.
I remembered the woman who went before me in radiation. Her make upwas perfect and her ear rings just right. She had no hair and the most exquisite smile. She was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.
I took a picture. I held the camera in front of the make up mirrorand smiled. Then I stepped into the shower. It felt freeing. Take the bull by the horns, you know.
Here was my hair falling out. My head growing bald and I was thinking that this was more normal than I have been feeling for awhile now. I don’t’ know how long the showerwent on, but soon I could tell that the last of the hair on my head hadn’t let go yet and would be there when I turned the water off. Turn the water off now. I didn’t turn the water off. What would I look like. It was well and good to stand here in the shower and feel free. What would I feel standing there in front of the make up mirroron the wall? “Who’s the fairest of them all?” Then the phone rang. I stepped out of the shower facing the opposite direction from the make up mirror.
